| i know the last was supposed to be my last
but. one more. for ole times sake
and i must get this out now, or ill forget.
just two more things
where did these limits come from?
why, must a man have some proof to his life
it isnt about a row of letters that follow a mans name that makes him good
nor a certificate hanging on his wall
true, in the world and of it
it is easier
to graduate from college, is a dream, a wonderful dream
and everyone believes you must do it now, else you wont do it
where did these limits come from
let me never know these
i can do, and will do
ALL that i am WILLED to do
and, i believe it
perhaps now is not the time, but, i can do when and what i am to do
we all can
if i was only made a true man by a degree
then i was never a man at all
if it was up to me, i might fall into fear and the worlds wishes
i may not be making these rash decisions
perhaps being a firefighter wont last
or will
perhaps something else will happen
but, where my heart and mind feel a tug
let me follow
in these days of my youth when this is possible
and if it takes me to the ends of the world
then grow me lord
you always have, and always will
we can do all through he who knows no limits.
point 2
you have to know i love my family
you have to know i always have
and always will
you have to know that i know no greater parents than my own
and, im thankful
if the lord so leads me, and i hope he does
might i be such a great father as mine own
and my wife as great a mother as mine own
until that day, lord lead me to where you wish id be
and let me follow the tugs on string
and, if i manage to print this out. these years of writings
may you realize that growth is inevitable
that my mind goes full circle
and tug between love
and reality
and the reality of love
it does exist, and i have known it
and it has come from a god that comforts my fearing heart
oh im afraid
i dont know what im going to do
or what im going to be
but i know that i am going to do just that
i am going to BE
may the lord walk with you always
god bless
julian
p.s. know no limits. he is capable of great and miraculous things. the world may not understand. they may even fear. but he loves his children. and is with them always. |
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| im writing from the school
and soon i will disconnect my internet
and AIM will be infrequent at best
and being an internet loser will be infrequent at worst
you see
this has been a waste. lots of interesting things found, but a waste of time
and im trying to realize that
i want to live life
not read about it
and ive had this journal forever.
back when it used to say how long id been a member. it doesnt do that anymore.
i dont wanna judge life on what i find online.
it has been fun
and soon i will compose all my entries to word
and then i will print them out and bind them
and i will put them away, for a later date
but this. this will soon be closed
no more metaphorical writing
no more hidden messages
just life
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correction:this has not been a waste
life is ironically beautiful |
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| i need eyes to be my guide
i need a voice thats louder than mine
i need hope
God i need you
cause i cant (and never have been able to) do this alone
Grace i call your name
wont your smile fall over me
im cracked and dried
on hands and knees
oh sweet Grace
rain down on me |
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| snails see the benefits
oh. its true. i could overcomplicate the simplicity of writing
of living
but its also true
life is beautiful
life is sweet
i just need to slow
everynow and then when im walking i look straight down at the ground below
it seems so far away
and pebbles seem sooooo small
and i feel large
then i look at the sky
and im small
and life
life is just that simple and pleasant
snails see the benefits
the beauty in every inch
SMILE WHEN YOU FEEL THE SUNLIGHT |
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| So this week was pretty all around
sick, skipped class, had tests
wasnt a great week
but im ever thankful for happy endings
how i can sit and talk with friends about dinasours and their relevance in my walk
or leave at 1am and still find friends out and about to meet up with again finally
or pass out at someone elses house watching family guy
just a cheesy, and yet put a smile on your face way to end a wierd week |
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